How's my Butt?

If you're looking for a post that's not TMI, move along my friend. Let's be real though - you wouldn't even be reading my blog. I have a good friend who's periodically asked me how my butt is in the last year, and I always find it a hilarious way to ask how I'm feeling. And it gets right to the point really. Last January I wrote a post talking about some of the more frustrating things I've been facing, so I won't get into all those details again. It's been a rough 18 months, but I think the end is near.

 I had an abscess drained back in October, and for ten months I've had an actively draining wound. It's as fun as you imagine an actively draining wound would be. Last Tuesday my doctor removed the drain. I didn't realize how frustrating and how uncomfortable it was until it was gone. Now I feel like myself again. It's incredible. 

 Despite nearly two decades of having Crohn's it's taken a long time for me to acknowledge, even to myself, that I'm not a well person. Crohn's is a progressive and unpredictable disease. I had 14 good years of remission, and I'm finally back there again after the last year and a half. I started new meds back at the end of June, and they seem to be working (knock on wood). I'm still taking antibiotics every day and will be for the foreseeable future. People who are well don't take a ton of meds, but it's my reality. That being said I am so grateful that my Crohn's is treatable. Even on my darkest days I feel hope and joy for how blessed I am, even during the last ten months with a butt drain (the sexiest two words ever paired together).

 I'm also so excited to really get back into running. I've run a few 5ks this summer, but I haven't been able to really get my groove back. Now that the drain is gone I'm itching to start logging miles again...except I have this teeny little knee issue. I have inflamed cartilage under my right knee cap (seriously...my body hates me), and I started PT today. Hopefully a few weeks of PT will get me back out on the trail injury free.
Nothing some anti inflammatory meds can't help!
It has been a long road, but I've learned to be kinder to myself and take things one step at a time. Once again I've realized how amazing the human body is, and how I am stronger than I ever knew. Crohn's is an absolute asshole, but it's taught me so much about myself. I'm looking forward to getting back to half marathon shape and to focusing on world domination in a few months. 
Love this pic at a concert last weekend. Cross training is working...now back to cario!

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  1. Stacey Hanysak MurrayAugust 22, 2017 at 9:17 AM

    Awesome news Sam! I had some gut issues the last couple of years and found a great couple of products that saved my life. Plexus probiotic and bio cleanse. It was a game changer. Keep up the great attitude and get back to running. Most importantly keep being that great mom you are to your beautiful boy :)

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